#61: Beyond

07 Feb

I had a conversation with an old friend this week. Someone who lives out of state. We run into each other once every couple of years at a conference, or other event for work. We were chatting, catching up, and he remarked at how “good” things seemed to be going for us. As he elaborated, I realized that the last time I saw him, it was over dinner after Alex died.

This friend had made some special plans to be in town so we could chat and mourn together. In just a few short years, it feels like we are so far on the other side of all that pain. What a miracle.

The cloud of grief that followed me, enveloped me, defined me was very real. Just because I’m not living that now doesn’t make it any less real. Our sadness was profound… pronounced…palpable. The lack of that sadness is reason enough to rejoice. We are in a different place though. A place of love, faith and joy. We have a sincere happiness that radiates through our house and our children. It is a beautiful thing.

I don’t take it for granted. There is hard work involved to manage your grief, but not let it consume you. With faith and hope, I choose joy.

Not a long message today, just a note to remark how grateful we are for all of God’s gifts. All of his blessings. And the greatest of these is love.

1 Comment

Posted by on February 7, 2014 in Uncategorized


One response to “#61: Beyond

  1. marilynne

    February 7, 2014 at 7:44 pm

    God has blessed you and your family in many many ways he so loved the world he has given only begotten son ……my daughter you have so much love to give and you are right grief is a very hard thing to come by but our Lord will get you thru the pain of the grief and let you lead your life with love and happiness …. Love Mom and Dad


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